Energized? what's that...

I'mm pretty sure I haven't had but one day off in the past 3 weeks... The only day I have off this week is tuesday.... court day.... I'm so scared.... I haven't even talked to my lawyer about the case... like, at all. Whoops. I have so much shit to get done tommorow. It sucks. Everything just kinda sucks right now. I just need a vacation. I wish I were going with my parents to see my sister in pensacola... although I will enjoy the time I get here without them.... I know I'll be working constantly. It's not just that I work every day.... it seems like I work all day most days.... its just.... grrrr.... and then there's the factor that mike and I keep having arguments. It's stressful b/c I want to be with him... but it always seems like there isn't a thing I can do to stop our arguments. A girlfriend she able to stop those.... I just can't rationalize a lot. Like, why be jealous when I am talking to one of my girlfriends about a middle school crush? It's just.... argh, I don't know. Somedays, I feel like all I am to him is a comparison. Not an actual person, just a jan doe... that fits the profile... fits a profile of someone I'm not. I think I'm getting to confusing and talking way to deep into this. I'm just sad, basically. Sad that I can't keep him happy and sad that I don't know how to get over this trust issue. If there were boundries it would be understandable.... but how can I keep the boundries that he doesn't? If he's going to talk about his past, I amm too; and I think that is a completely healthy thing... ~sigh~ I'm going to go shower now... didn't have the energy to get up this morning and do that.

Flower Shop = Dangerous Job?... haha

I'm apparantly a bad luck charm. Two people from work have had to go to the hospital b/c of something they did while I was standing near by. One sliced her hand on a piece of glass and the other fell 10 ft down a ladder. Yeah, I've been warning everyone to stay away from me.
This week is crazy... 60 some hours... and I'd like to talk to the person that decided it would b funny to make mme have my period this week, as if I'm not stressed. Yeah, it made me really sick last night. I don't think I've ever vomitted when I had my period. It was weird... it's also weird that my side hurts like it did when I had an ovarian cyst... that's never happened before either. I don't know what's going on....
I'm pretty much not getting to see my sweetie at all this week. It sucks. Wednesday I worked 7:30-6:45 at Ukrop's and then went straight to church. Um, today I worked 8:30-1 at Vs then 1:30-9:15 at Ukrop's. Tommorow I'm working 7:30-4 then 5-10:30 (or later...), and then saturday 8-4:30 then 6-10:30 (or later...) at Vs. So.... yeah, busy lil girl.... maybe I'll get to see mike between some of those shifts :) .... On sunday, I'm working in between going to morning and evening church... and then on Vday I'm mworking 12:10. I'm just like... I'm going to need a vacation after all this.... and sadly, I'm not even going to have all the money I need... ~sigh~
I think I'm done bitching now.... I feel a little better.....

Life Doesn't Always Go On...

It's been a while since I've posted.

My grandfather passed away a few days before the new year.
I got a speeding ticket for 91/65.
I have to pay for a lawyer.
I helped pay for damages to my car during the snow/ice storm.
I'm broke.

Um, mike....if my tagboard weren't fucked up... I would reply, but I don't know what you posted...... I love you. :)