22.6.04

a new day, a brigher outlook? nah

I still think about scott every day. OH, btw... I haven't heard the song that I have linked here (click on the title to view the lyrics), but I totally love the lyrics. I need to hear it... I HAVE TO. haha, I'm such a dork.
okay, back to "catching up." I left you off pissed off about scott being a dickhead for getting back w/that girl... or at least that's what he's attempting to do. So, I mean, I'm numb to this, right? It's painful and it makes me cry; but I'm becomming callous to heartache. My parents go out of town last thursday... I have to go to work early and then when I get off I go to king's dominion w/ my best friend and her little brother. I love her to death... and him, but argh, I was so frustrated that day. I love going to amusement parks for the thrills and the fun, not the whining. We go to the water park and have a blast, but after awhile it becomes boring even for little matthew. So we go into the amusement park part of the park and this boy... who is almost 13 years old won't ride any of the coasters. Is that baffling to you? I mean, when I was like 6 I was whining b/c I could only ride the kiddie coasters.... As soon as I bcame tall enough I was ridding everything! I mean, what is wrong w/ this kid? So yeah, I get frustrated but I still go along w/ the lil whiny boy and do what he wants. So we ride one water ride and after we are wet we d ecide to go ahead and ride the log flume... ooooo the log flumme? lol, who is scared of that? you can ride it as an infant. Stupid boy is scared. We're going up the last hill and I start screaming and talking to the operator on top that I want off.. just joking b/c I thought it was hillarious. Apparantly it wasn't. Apparantly I was being a bitch and making fun of the little baby. ARGH.... I thought that was so stupid. STUPID STUPID STUPID. That's how I feel about it. Anyways, I just had to get that out... not too interesting but I got it out. Um, Friday I worked in the morning again... hardly got any sleep that nigth just b/c I was all sad about scott and I don't know... I stayed online pretty late and then had to be at work at 7:30. When I got off I did random shit like bought my dad a father's day president.. went grocery shopping... out to eat w/ some friends.. etc. Then I went and rented some mmovies for me and allen to watch that night. Gothika, 50 first dates, and the italian job. He cam over around 11:30 and like... I don't know... he was really being all that f lirty... I drank some of the jack daniel's he brough over... but he didn't. I was like whatever... we watched twoish movies.. talked some. not much... he asked to kiss me and I told him no... haha. I mean, he's still w/ his gf and I wasn't really feeling that attracted to him at all at that mmoment. So like, at 4 I told him that I was going to go to bed since we were leaving for the beach at 7. He decided to go home instead of spending the night here... which I thought was odd since it was so late... but I was just like okay.... said bye or whatever. So then I clean up the house some b/c my parents were coming home saturday. I never actualy went to sleep. I got online for a while.... cleaned and packed and then itwas like 5:30. I took an hour nap and then got up and g ot ready for the beach. ALlen calls me at like 7:15ish and tells me he can't go to the beach b/c his parents got in this big fight and stuff. So it ends up being me, my best friend, her boyfriend, and two other guys in our cool lil expedition... it was sweet! Okay, let me rephrase... huge expedition. Um, we get there... having a blast... we met up w/ two other guys and its just like a great timem w/ all these guys me and jennifer. I love not being around a bunch of self conscious whiny girls. OOOOOHHHH, back it up, let me tell you what happened w/ jennifer. Okay, so like, she didn't have her bathing suit on yet so we stop at a rest stop so she can put it on. She has a gorgeous bathing suit... it cost her $100, so I would hope so, but i notice this problem when we get back in the car. Her like padding was showing really really bad. I couldn't tell her b/c I was sitting in the back and she was driving a nd I didn't wanna come off bitchy and embarass the fuck out of her. So when we get to the beach, I come up to her and ask her if she could take the padding out b/c it was showing a bit. I mean, come on, that's embarrassing. Who wouldn't want to be told that. I guess she was acting out defensive b/c she got really bitchy at me... kept readjusting me and asking me if was showing. Knowing that we were going to be like, running around, in the water, tackling each other... I tell her yeah, its okay for now. And then she keeps asking me over and over.... ARGH... anyways, so we get out on the beach and we start playing volleyball. I look over at her, and half the fake boob is sticking out.... So I run past her to get the ball and try to tell her discreetly to look down... so finally she takes the stupid things out. I mean, I understand why she didn't wnat to... b/c the bathing suit was going to be a lil big on her when she did. But looking from a guy's perspective... to see a girl w/ padding in her top is like... wow, she must be insecure... why does she want to false advertise? IT's not like that for us though... its just like, if you have a thin bathing suit on, you're going to have headlights showing when yo uget cold (which I did... oh well) and w/ the padding you look slightly bigger... but its still your boobs. Anyways, that was just drama of the morning.... she apologized later. I'm tired of typing and you're probably tired of reading... so I"m going to continue this once again... later.

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