Post 101

It's saturday night and I've worked 9-5 today. I always sleep at mike's on saturday nights.... not s ure if I should be putting clothes into my bag right now or not. I'm so at a loss of emotions with this. There comes some point where your brain just stops letting you open up to get hurt. I don't know if I'm even going to see mike tonight. He called me at work today so I suppose that means we will be meeting up soon. I told him I wanted to have a talk. I just hope what's really on my mind.... what's been in the back of my mind for so long.... will have a chance to be heard. I hope we don't end up hanging out w/ his friends or m y friends and then going home and passing out. All together, what I'm really hoping for is some change. Drastic isn't needed.... just change in general. Straightner should be heated up soon.... so I guess I'll go get ready for my night. I'm thinking tonight will be a good night, at least that's what I keep telling myself to believe. We shall see.