Ah, okay, so I didn't make it thru the ten days. I stopped. I blacked out the gym a few too many times. I had a talk w/ a friend. I don't know... well, okay, I'm fucked in the head. Really, I am. What made me break my fast the first timem was t hat I stepped on the scales... I wasn't supposed to... but I was waiting for my water to get hot to take my shower... and its just my habit. I had lost 12 pounds in four days. That was just so... like, wow! and my mind started thinking... well, I don't really need to fast... blah,blah, totally forgetting the reasons I started in the first place... or maybe my original reason was to lose weight. I don't know... all I know is I had to stop. :( I don't feel like posting about anything else going on in my life... I'm just so annoyed w/ my mother right now... and so annoyed at myself.... wondering if I'm leading anyyone on. Apparantly I am.. apparantly I'm a bitch for being friendly ("flirting").... whatever, I'm nto going to change how I act b/c someone told me it was leading someone on.... I just don't even give a shit...