When I was walking outside yesterday, I saw my shadow... this distorted view of me. For some reason, the way I was standing in the sun, my arms looked stick thin. It looked right. I just wish I could be that thin. OKay, its not if I could... because I AM capable of it. I'm going to get thinner. I'm so fat now. I want to be able to touch my middle finger and thumb around my upper arm. I want to fit back into those clothes in my closent that I often question why I keep. I want so much, but I hardly work for it.
No food today.
I'm going to ignore the growling... I'm going to go out during supper time. I'm going to drink green tea on my break at work. I can do it.... I just have to remember.... for every indulgence of my past, there must be a lack of indulgence in the future. I'm never going to lose enough weight if I keep on eating when I say I'm not going to. We'll see what happens...